I haven't been feeling well lately. I'm frankly really sick of freaking relationships. I don't have a "significant other". Frankly, right now, I don't want one, but gosh EVERYONE has this SI and it drives me nuts. I can't write for a while, just because my personal life is descending into hell. haha. I start high school on the 8th and I'm scared out of my wits of it. I told myself I wasn't going to make a big deal out of it but I went to orientation and ended up acting like a stressed out ostrich. My locker doesn't even fit my leg in it, my classes are far away from each other and the school is too big! I'm scared (pardon the language, I never say this really) I'm scared shitless! Plus, I'm kind of tiny, (5'2" 105lbs) and I have a couple classes with upperclassmen and I'm just gonna get killed.


Then, my personal life with friends is, as usual, weird. I don't know who to trust and I think one of my friends is using me to get closer to another friend who I've been best friends with since I was born, really, I literally don't know life without her. Because of a certain person I cared about, I can't listen to Death Cab for Cutie without balling my eyes out. My life crumbles and I can put it back together pretty well. Right now I just really miss my friends and I wish I could see them one last time before school starts and our lives get busier. I need a hug... A big hug....